Why pregnancy really isn't that bad :)

{Jessica, Where have you been the past week?} 

Oh, you know me, just busy busy...ok, actually not. I am kinda tired these days.  Nate tells me I'm making a baby or something, so its ok to be tired. I am basically BFF with my lazy boy, since it is electric and sits me up with the push of a button 

{oh good! I thought you went out of the country or something trying to evade this dreaded time of the last few weeks of pregnancy}

Actually, its not that bad. I know, I am the *complainer of the year* when it comes to talking about pregnancy, but I have been very blessed by the Lord that I am not in a horrible state about this pregnancy right now. Oh yes, if you had asked me anytime in the past 8.5 months, I would have told you that I was ready to be done and that its just so hard. But last week this amazing "blah" or numb emotional feeling came over me and I don't really care that i am pregnant right now.

{no way! like, you are fine being pregnant forever??}

haha...no! I just mean that I am not frustrated like I thought I would be. I thought i would be an emotional wreck and not able to stand the last few weeks of this pregnancy, but the Lord is amazing and knew I needed this. 

He also knew I needed a sweetheart like this

and some fun dates like this:

#rockiesgame

side note: as I was walking in last week, this police officer asked if "i should be walking in my condition" then the concessions man asked my "baby would like some peanuts" lol   the comments some people make

Anyway, back to the Lord knowing things that make my heart happy:

and more fun dates to the movies 

and more laughs and smiles from my son

(seriously, aren't children heaven sent?? this pregnancy has been so much easier because Eli makes me smile all day long! he is soooo cute!)

{wow, so pregnancy isn't all bad, eh?}

Heck no! I might make it seem that way, but really here are the good parts of being pregnant:

1) feeling a baby kick is the sweetest thing

2) you get to eat what ever you want and no one can tell you you're eating too much 

3) I never feel alone, its like i have someone with me all the time

4) I know he is safe inside of me. Once he comes out I'm all stressed about if he's eating enough or breathing while sleeping or put in his car seat right...but right now, he's totally fine and safe :)

5) Anytime I lift something or walk somewhere, i feel like a super hero because everyone is like "oh, you shouldnt be doing that."  but I'm like, "well, you know me, able to do hard things all the time, even if its lift this 5 lb table that everyone thinks is too heavy for me" lol

6) Here is a much more spiritual one, but I feel very close to the Savior. I know I am not doing anything nearly as important or as big of a scale as His Atonement, but I am able to sacrifice my life for someone else's life directly. One on one. It makes me feel very close to Him. I am able to get a closer glimpse of the love Heavenly Father has for His children because I love these little spirits that I get to sacrifice and spend time with sooooo much it makes my heart want to burst!

{thanks for sharing, its good to know you're not just a cranky preg-jess all the time}

Well, I try not to be. Heck, I made like 5 jokes last night and nate might have laughed at 4 of them! I am pretty darn enjoyable when I want to be :)

And I try to be nice, and not share all my woes with people who havent been pregnant before, otherwise they get really scared lol

{well, what now? you are 9 days away from your due date, and Eli was 9 days early, right?}

Yes....yes.

Now I just wait. My calendar is open. My to-do lists are done. 

I kinda just want to lie down for a while, but I already did that for a few hours today, so I probably should do something else, eh?

I know that just sitting here and wishing it to be over is not the right thing to do...so i will be strong. I will move forward and endure to the end hopefully happily :)

That's my invite to y'all

Whatever trial you are going through right now. Sit down and make a list of why it is actually not that hard, or why it is a blessing. Then realize ways you can endure to the end and not just "get through it." Then post it somewhere.

It will help!

promise!

Good luck

Hopefully, I will have this baby tonight and not see you for a while, cuz who has time for bloggin when they have a newborn to coo over #andfeed #andgetsomesleep 

The Storm before the Storm

Remember how my life was totally out of control last week?

I mean, besides the crazy pregnancy horomones:

I found bugs in my bed multiple times! #eek #worstthingever

My A/C wasn't working

Our car broke down #stuckathome

A trail of ants found Eli's food stash under his high chair #maybeishouldmop??

No one on craigslist would return my phonecall

All the good deals at dealerships were taken a few hours before we called

i was stuck at home with no way of shopping or playing with friends

Seriously. I was kinda going crazy last week

I don't even remember what happened. 

Yesterday at church, I got the oh-so-common-8-month-pregnant-question: "How are you feeling?"

Seriously, like a month ago, no one asked me that. But even men that I never talk to stop and ask me. I must have a big sign on me that says: I am super pregnant and need to be asked how I am feeling, not doing...but feeling. 

#ormaybesomeonesentoutanemail

Anyway, normally when I answer that question I say "Good." but in my mind I am thinking "if you only knew that my hips hurt so bad I want to go into a coma until the baby comes, I can't sleep, my legs cramp anytime I even think about moving, my depression is a rollercoaster, and my son's favorite activity is to either body slam my belly or run away from me in parking lots....How am I feeling? Like I wish I had this baby a few months ago. Thanks for asking."

But this week I didn't even think that because I guess I was so busy looking up cars online {for-like-ever} that I forgot that I am annoyed of being pregnant still

Here is the good news. 

Monday:

 Car broke down

Tuesday:

 AC in our apartment was finally fixed

we sold our car 

(which we deemed to be totalled...seriously, it was a mess and not worth more that $200 to fix...we actually made quite a profit haha. You can read about our ghetto car here)

Wed: 

look at craigslist all day

look up every car i find on kellybluebook to find out its actual value

look up reviews on certain types of cars

look up if the car will fit two car seats and big pregnant lady and a tall husband

call and email a million people

Thursday:

continue crazy looking and calling

have only one person return your phone call

ok, one more person returned the call. we set up an appt for early the next morning

friday:

wake up super early to go test drive a car, and realize too late that he had texted to cancel it because he was going camping

(seriously, does anyone actually want to sell their car on craigslist?? if so, answer your phone and let us test drive it!)

cranky mom for getting too little of sleep

test drive another car that is too small for us

continue looking online

call and go to multiple car dealerships for cars that we want and the cars were sold before we could get there #badluck

Saturday:

wake up and find good deals

(more kelly blue book and reviews...we are pro at this now)

make an appt, get down there. 

test drive a car/get it checked at a mechanic

make an offer on it 15 mins before the next person comes in to look at it

(seriously, this car was a good deal. he had 3 other people scheduled to test drive it that day and more people called while we were signing the paperwork!!)

so we bought this car:

2003 Honda Accord with 83,000 miles on it

It drives amazing and feels really new! We are so excited

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Wow.

I seriously don't want to think about cars anymore

but I am now sucked into it, and I look at the make and model of all the cars we pass and think about how it was rated online or what the kbb would be.

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So today. I actually went to the store

since I now have a car to drive :)

and we bought tons of stuff because we were soooo out of food and stuff from me dedicating my life to finding a car before this baby came.

#sidenote

yes, we were in a hurry to buy a car. I mean, anyone that told me that I should just calm down and take my time, and wait a few weeks...NO WAY! Seriously, everything that went on last week should not happen once you have a newborn. It was life consuming. Plus getting emissions and registering your car here also takes forever....so i knew we had to buy a car before the baby came. So we are very grateful that despite no one answering our calls and many deals being taken before we got there, that we still found a good car that we are super happy with :)

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so after my 2 hour target waddling trip

seriously, it took way too long for me to get to each corner of target today. I am surprised no one asked if i wanted one of those electric carts.

anyway, so after my 2 hour trip and bringing it in from the car...I am going to waddle to my bed and wait for eli to wake up

#happyresting!!!

Something is out to get me!!!!

So, I don't believe in fate or omens or karma.

I also think one shouldn't complain all the time

--key word, *think*...i might still complain, but i dont think i should--

but

there is something out to get me! Seriously!

So, when I was pregnant with Eli, I was sick almost the whole time. Guess what made my sickness worse? 

being hot!

guess who lived in provo in one of the hottest summers on record  while pregnant?

me!

guess what didnt work in my apt or car?

my AC!!

Seriously!

We had to have a window unit installed in our apartment for me to even survive!

I didn't go outside unless i had to between 8 am and 6 pm

when I did, and i had to drive my car I wanted to die. The AC would randomly stop working. Like all the time. I even shared the car with my brother-in-law that summer and he said it always worked for him

see...something is out to get me!

THEN!

the next summer, same car, not pregnant, the AC worked all summer in both my car and apartment.

THEN!

this summer, pregnant....AC not working in my car or apartment again!

seriously!!!!!!

like, i had to trade cars with nate and make him drive our ghetto car 20 miles to work, when that car's limit is like 21 miles, only because i couldn't stand the heat (plus poor eli was always so sweaty, especially since the back windows had to be screwed shut!)

and we have run the AC straight for the past few days and its still a constant 75 degrees! it might have cooled down to 72 or 73 last night, but probably not, I just sleep with a fan on me all the time now.

#proof

#dontworry   I am haunting maintenance until they fix it, since they've been over twice in the past month and not done so.

#lovehaterelationshipwithmaintenance

So, this morning Eli and I went to the gym...they must not have the AC working in there either because by the end of my workout i was dripping sweat everywhere. Which is not a normal 8 month pregnant lady type of workout for me. (These days I go to the gym just to make me feel better :) i guess, haha)

#8monthbelly #yesiwearsliponshoestothegym #icantreachmytoesthesedays

So, i am basically going to sit here at my apartment dying of heat until this baby comes. Then maybe maintenance will come fix my AC around the time the baby is here.
#praythey'llcomesooner!!!

Nate said it must just be something that I have to go through during pregnancy since the intense heat only comes on and the AC stops working only while I'm prego

haha

well, to make all of you feel better about my situation

this is the beautiful view we get when we cross the street to look at the "horsie" and "cow" everyday

colorado really is beautiful! and the mountains...well, you can't see them in this picture, but they are breathtaking! so panoramic!

have a good day!

and make sure to enjoy your AC for me!!!!

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update

this is the next day.
I didn't post the above post because.....our car broke down :(

yep, it finally went on us. Luckily nate was the one driving it, and I wasnt stuck in the heat and then the rain and then in the sweaty passenger seat of the tow truck.

so besides that, the other worse news is that...
things are getting hot in here!
look!

78 degrees!!!!! in my house!!!!!!!

like, "don't touch me! don't look at me! don't even think hot thoughts!" 

The AC has been on non-stop for 3 days, and the temp is only rising.

And now after meddling with the gage, I messed it up and it won't change its "target" temperature, and i turned and yelled...well, loudly said "oh no!!!! we are going to die!" and Eli started crying. 

So after consoling him and telling him we were not going to die

this happened

This is Eli crying because he wants me to turn the fan off. He stands in front of it and cries and doesn't move but just points and says "off--off".   

Its cute and sad at the same time.

So, what are we doing to stay cool?

well, all my blinds are shut

the lights are off

the fan is staying on (sorry Eli)

and I am not doing laundry

even though i should, because my favorite,...ok, only prego yoga pants are dirty

So, I am in some old BYU-I shorts and a shirt that gives my lower belly a draft (at least that part of me is cool...haha, no visitors please.)

We have no where to escape to because i don't have a car

So, if you know of anyone who goes around sabotaging pregnant women, can you please call the cops on them??? this isn't very fun 

hopefully tomorrow there will be better news!