Wednesday, May 27, 2015

"can't-make-up-my-mind" syndrome

Have you ever had complete "can't make up your mind" syndrome?

Well, I am officially 8 months (36 weeks) pregnant now!
(I was so excited to get to this point! I mean, being pregnant you can use pregnancy as an excuse, but no one...I mean no one...messes with an 8 month pregnant lady. So i have officially reached this awesome status of "don't you dare make fun of my waddle...I'm 8 months pregnant!")

anyway,
 I had this crazy energy last week and got all my "get-done-before-the-baby-comes-or-else" to-do list items done.
Nursery...done!
Baby clothes....washed!
Hospital bags...packed!
witch hazel and depends....bought!
#okdontactlikeyoudidntusethem #weallknowhowpostpartumis

 Now I am just kinda twiddling my fingers, waiting for this baby to come, since all my friends I usually hang out with are out of town, moved away, or sick.

My emotions are all over the place and kinda contradictory right now
Some days...ok, lets go with...some hours/minutes/seconds I'm kinda like:

"wow, I am so tired, I really wish I could just be put in a coma 
and told to wake up when my baby is here"
next minute
"Running a half marathon sounds really awesome right now."
#ireallyhavethesethoughts #crazyright?

Sometimes:
"I am so sick of eating and getting insta-bloated, I wish I didn't have to eat food...ever."
next minute
"I want to eat everything in this house, and now I will."

Sometimes...well, more like ever since this weekend:
"Hooray, I'm glad our friends left their amazing-1000-calories-per-bite lemon bundt cake at our place after they came and played games with us Saturday night."
next minute
"why do I keep eating this cake that makes me feel like a sugar-high zombie? I am going to turn into a walking cake!"

while Eli is asleep:
"I feel great, I won't take a nap, Ill just watch netflix for hours"
once he's awake
"why couldn't you take longer than a 3 hr nap? I wanted to sleep or at least get things done."


I hope this never happens to you. It is driving me cah-ray-zeeeee!    And I know nate is going crazy too, although he won't say anything about it #perksofhavingawonderfulhusband
Except that I can't decide on the baby's name!!!!
Seriously! Boy names are really rough!
We had a million girl names we were in love with #oklikefour
but then once we found out it was a boy, we were like "um...cool. what are we going to name him?"

So, nate really likes to call the baby a name, not just "baby." So, i give him the top name of the week to call our baby. But then, it rubs me the wrong way once and we switch names. We've gone through our top 3-4 names like ten times. I finally told him that I can't decide til we meet the sweet little baby and then we can decide between Mustang and Eugene
#jk #notournamechoices #butwouldntMustangMarchantbelegit??

PLUS
 I still think we are having a girl!!!

Here's the story. We went to the ultra sound doctor and he had this old equipment. I was like....ok, i hope you can tell whats going on in there? His first shot he was like "oh this is an obvious one!"...and we were like, really? 
So, he did the rest of the ultra sound checking the other organs and I literally said:
"um...can you show us the boy part again, just to make sure?" 
He didnt think that was funny that I was challenging his 90 year old machine. 
But I guess the baby turned and he couldn't find it again. 

So we're stuck with this "obvious" picture he gave us :)



So, we tell people we are 80% sure its a boy. If it comes out a girl, then we have some awesome names for her :) 

Can you see why I am an emotional wreck over this name thing?? I don't even know the gender, but a lone what to call him/her.

Well, I'm off to do...something.
Maybe clean, maybe make cookies
maybe read, maybe eat
maybe sky-dive or maybe i'll just paint my nails

I can't decide. I need to get a hobby...wait, if I get a hobby started, it will stop once this baby comes...so maybe I shouldn't...or maybe I should

ahhhhh
til next time!

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Gluten Free --Part III

My post today is to answer a lot of questions. 

A lot of people want to know more about my experience. 
A lot of other people want to know if and how to go gluten free. So I have combined it all into this post. (although I believe in NAET and body talk and how it helped me, I also realize that there are a lot of people that just need to go gluten free and since I went through all the pain of figuring this stuff out on my own, I thought I would share the information with ya'll so maybe it would make someone's transition much easier) 

Enjoy!


Answering questions:
So, a lot of people have asked me questions after hearing my story of overcoming celiac disease (if you missed the other posts, this is where you can find part I and part II) . Here are some of the main questions asked and their answers:


{why did it work?}
You know...I don't know exactly why. I do believe that energy has a lot to do with the way we all work. The way things were created and run. It has a lot to do with our moods and the way we think and feel. It has to do with how we interact with others
(check this out to see how energy can be seen in formation of ice crystals when speaking positive or negatively to them)
I think its a neat way to find out what is wrong. Without modern medicine, how did people do it back 2000 years ago? It could quite possibly be through energy!

{you referred to the body talk specialist saying that she resolved past conflict/trauma that happened. What caused this? Do we all have this? Why couldn't you remember the incident if it was so specific?}
Well, I am not sure how this all works. The body talk practitioner just said that I had been holding onto a memory that was deeply embedded that was causing all this turmoil down to even the cells of my body. But she also did say that my colon problems were caused by trying to have control, and it wasn't related to a specific event. (and that most people who try to have a lot of control also have colon/digestive problems). I don't know why I can't remember the memory she was referring to, but I am sure that a life time of those memories would def build up and cause me to live differently, and that by that different way of thinking and living that it would cause me to have different energy. I guess that energy just affected me more than I thought. 
There are lots of ancient medicines that believe you have energy pathways, and if the energy gets stuck somewhere then it causes a lot of problems. Chinese medicine works a lot with it, and they use this medicine widely over there today. 
Yes, i think to some degree all of us have these energy blockages. Now, does it affect everyone the same? i don't know. Why do some incidents cause people to have severe Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and the same thing doesnt really affect someone else? I don't know. but that explains it..kinda

{Why do you think that there is such a widespread problem of people not "accepting" specifically gluten these days?}
This is a tricky one. I do have a strong opinion on this. I have much experience that shows that there are a lot of us 30 and under that are having intense problems. I rarely encounter someone who has the problem who is over 30 (albeit, it does happen), but it is booming in our generation. It also seems to happen to a lot of people when they turn about 18.

My theory is that something dramatic happened about 25 years ago that affected all of us as children. and that it takes about 10 years to get bad enough to show. (that is why we are all about 18-30 that its affecting). It could be through genetic modifications of our food that occured 25 years ago or a strain of antibiotics that came out then.

I know that genetically modified food is not the enemy, and that it has saved thousands and millions of lives. Here is an article on it. So, I will not protest it. I personally just think that it is linked to it. But I also think that antibiotics are a common cause of gut problems. Doctors prescribe them way too readily these days. So as of right now I feed my family organic non-GMO wheat as much as i can, and stay away from antibiotics if I can. 

{Do you think your symptoms will come back?}
this is a tricky one. I def think they could come back because whatever caused me to have the problem in the first place is still out there. Since I don't know exaclty what it is, then it could come back. and yes, I would first go to a NAET dr and a body talk practitioner to try and fix the problem. The money is way way way worth feeling better. Plus, we save tons of money not having to eat gf right now. 

{do you have to keep going back to those doctors?}
I asked that over and over again to the doctors because I was scared I couldn't be  fixed. They kept telling me that only a few people ever come back after they are "healed." And a few of them just to get tune ups or fix other allergies they have developed. So i don't feel like i'll have to go in for tune ups, but if I do. I don't mind spending a few hundred every few years to feel good :)

{how did you even get courage to do that?}
I was so sick.
Let's restate it.
I was so so sick.
I was willing to try anything. Plus a few testimonials sure helped. I always say that if you are not willing to try these things, you are not sick enough then. Because we had no money. Like no money, but we budgeted and spent around $1500-$2000 on all the treatments before we were done to help me be healed. So money wasn't a barrier, it was just...what was I willing to try to feel better?

{would I recommend these treatments for people who were not as sick as you were?}
yes. I think that in our world of processed foods, chemicals, antibiotics, pollution, etc that so many "unnatural" things are affecting us that most of us have problems that could be resolved  through NAET and body talk. I also think a lot of us live with problems that we don't realize are heavily affecting us, but once they are resolved we realize how much of a burden they were. (like headaches, low blood sugar, mild depression, pains, difficulty sleeping, etc). So I would recommend everyone going in and doing it to see how your life can be improved!
Sessions cost anywhere from $40-$100 depending on the experience of the practitioner.

{well, my doctor says I have IBS and so I'm sticking with that.}
Yes, you probably do have IBS. I had IBS! but I feel like IBS is a way to say "something makes you sick and we don't know what or how to help you."  So you can live like that, like I did for years, or you can move forward with going gluten free or going to one of these practitioners to see if you could overcome that problem, and feel better. 

{do you feel like everyone with gluten sensitivity or celiac disease will be healed by going to said doctors?}
I want to say yes. I would recommend everyone with these problems to go. But sadly, I don't think it will be 100% success rate. Just like NAET couldnt totally help me (it helped me overcome my seasonal allergies and sugar/nut problems.) but it couldnt figure out gluten. So, i think if you search long enough, you could find something that would work. But I also feel that most people could benefit from NAET or body talk just like I did. I would def try them first!!!

Here are questions people ask me about going gluten free:
How do I know if I should go gluten free??

Symptoms:
Here is a list of the typical symptoms that gluten could be causing
Here is another list of things that are most commonly seen
the trick is that it does different things to most people. So, the lists vary all over the place!
My symptoms were things that I never would have thought were connected to eating gluten, so I was treating them all individually, and when I went gf, and a lot of them resolved or went away and would come back when i was forced to eat gluten for the tests and such, then it was crazy to realize how gluten was affecting my body!

I had: bloating, alternating constipation and diarrhea, extreme tiredness/fatigue, high anxiety, constant need to eat (always felt like I was fasting, my arms would shake, but I was always bloated and full...it was weird), canker sores, receding gum lines/sensitive gums/enamel loss, depression/extreme mood swings, weight fluctuation (like 8 lbs difference day to day), weight gain, nausea, and more. 

Seriously, it was way worth it to not eat gluten for me. But like I always say, if you are not willing to go gluten free to see if it will make you feel better, then you must not be feeling bad enough. 

Why would I want to go gluten free??

Intense problems it could be causing:
So, there are a lot of other things that eating gluten can cause problems with.
Why?
Because it has to do with your digestive system and that has a lot to do with your hormones. Seriously, I could tell that my hormones were so much more regulated when I went totally gf. That's why if you are having a problem with Autism, Depression, Anxiety, Infertility, Arthritis, Headaches/migraines, Insomnia, Extreme Fatigue/Tiredness, or other things that doctors can't figure out what is causing the problem. I would say look into this. Try one of the options below to find out if gluten is causing you problems.

What are tests that can be done to know if I need to be going gf?
Well there are a few options. 
1) go gluten free (like completely gluten free for 3-6 weeks, directions below) and see what difference it makes, or see what it feels like to add back in gluten
2) get tested
there are different tests you can do. Almost all of them require you to be eating gluten during the test, so if you are eventually going to do these tests I would recommend doing it before you go gluten free. The only thing about these tests is that many people might come back negative (stating that gluten is not the problem, BUT i know lots of people that the tests were negative but living gf makes them feel so much better. So they are not totally trustworthy, but they are helpful.)
You can get a blood test done
Get an endoscopy
Gene testing
(these 3 tests are explained here, talk with your doctor about what would be best for you)

3) Go to a NAET practitioner who can "test" you to see what foods are making you sick/causing different symptoms or long term problems.  (I would recommend this just because they are able to do things much faster and much easier than all the blood work that only tells you if your body is rejecting gluten, but can't do anything about it. But what if you are also rejecting corn and milk? NAET helps there!)  --for more info about NAET check out my other blog post about it here

Ok, I realize I am ready to go gf, how should I do it?
It is important to do this right, you have to go completely gluten free to see a difference! Even a small bite of bread can throw this whole thing off!
the first time i didnt go totally gf so i couldnt tell a difference!
 The second time I went completely (like no sacrament no toast in a normal toaster), it worked much better! but even then it wasnt night and day, but i felt 50% better after 3 weeks, then after a few months i felt 80% better. And when i ate gluten again it wasnt immediately like "wow, that stuff hurts me." it takes my system 12-24 hrs to react and start giving me pains and such.

You have to cut out all things with gluten:
anything with wheat, barley, rye, or oats (unless the oats say gf)

If you are like dying because the gf bread tastes bad then, you might have to cut it out for a few weeks and then add gf bread back in.  i have seen studies that show that if you take something out of your diet for about 3 weeks (like normal bread for example) then bring it back in another way (like starting to eat gf bread) then you cant tell the difference as much as if you immediately switched over.  So if you  hate gf pasta or crackers or bread, give it 2-3 weeks and see if you like it later.

Here are two options for your food lists: 

1- buy expensive gluten free food, so you can continue eating the same meals as before (ie sub gf pasta in your casseroles, use gf bread, etc)
2- try to eat what you normally eat that is gluten free (ie only cook meals you are used to that are already gf)

let me explain the difference. if you go with #1, then you can still have your pasta casseroles and such, but use gf pasta and gf cream of chicken soup, or you can use gf bread or flour to make pancakes or french toast. Two problems with this: your family might not like the gf stuff (nate doesnt mind it, but since it is so much more expensive, if we have pasta, i make 2 different kinds of pasta and just make sure not to contaminate my gf pasta with the spoon that is used in his pasta)...BUT with casseroles, that is hard, so if i make lasagna, we just use gf pasta and nate says he cant tell the difference.
 second problem with just switching things out for gf stuff is that it tastes weird.

if you go with #2 then you might go crazy only eating the few things that are in your original diet that are gluten free. (like salad, chips and salsa, and rice).  So your choice :)


Here are some links to help make the transition easier:
Here is a link to cleaning out your kitchen if you are dedicated to getting gluten out of your life!
Here is a link to a fun website that will help you see how "probable" that things are gluten free (this is a link to gummy bears...but I used this website to help me find out things that I could be getting contaminated with that didn't have the information on the package.)

I am still sick even with gf, what else could be causing the problem?
this is a super tricky question, because everyone is different, 
BUT common things that I researched are:
-oats, carageenan (they put this in things to make it creamier 
like sour cream, icecream, soymilk), msg, carmel coloring
-really, it could be anything.  I would first try taking out gluten and milk. This is most common, soy next, then corn. (really it is difficult to tell, that is why I like NAET practitioners that can tell you what things your body is rejecting.)
-It also might be a problem with low probiotic growth in your gut, 
so you could try taking probiotics and prebiotics
-It might also be an enzyme that is not working for you, there are different supplements that have enzymes that help you break down gluten, I never went this route, but had freinds that did and it worked for them. Talk with your doctor about this one, I guess :)

GF tastes weird, what are some good meals and brands that you recommend?

Here is a great link to help with eating out GF (since you know you'll be out and about and others will want to go places other than Costa Vida or Chick-fil-A)
gfoverflow.com is wonderful to find out which brand of things are gf

here are some meal ideas for you:

{Breakfast} 
Cereal: the only cereals that are gf are the ones in the gf section or Chex (not even off brand chex are gf ) and sometimes rice krispies make gf cereal, but the only gf ones have a HUGE sign on the box saying gf (normal ones arent gf bc they use malted barley in the rice crispies so its not gf)
oatmeal: oats are not technically glutinous but they usually share land with wheat and are severely contaminated, so you can buy gf oats and gf granola (but watch out for normal granola bars that have oats in them, even though the allergy statements do not say: contains wheat/gluten, it still is not gf unless specified gf oats are used)
toast: use gf bread, but dont use your normal toaster, just broil it in the oven and make sure to have your own butter that is not contaminated with bread crumbs (this is important with all spreadable things. I just have my own drawer in the fridge with my own pb, jam, butter, mayo, ect and own shelf in the cupboard, plus i label everything gf so i know its my peanut butter)
 cottage cheese is ok

{Snacks} 
crackers: glutino crackers are pretty good, or nut thins
yogurt: most yoplait is ok, but still make sure it says gluten free on the package because i have gotten home with some that arent ok (just a side note, youll find that some brands always label gf, but some brands are gf but dont label it, and some only label the allergens...thats why i use gfoverflow to find out what brands are ok)
veggies: salads are good, just check out the dressing on gfoverflow first
 chips & salsa: check out the salsa, sometimes they add wheat as thinning agents, so check on gfoverflow for brands

{Lunch}
pasta: if you decide to use gf pasta i like the corn pastas, but you can try the rice ones, sometimes they get mushy though
Sandwiches: this is tricky because it depends on what type of bread you use. usually bread tastes better toasted or put in the microwave, then i do open-faced because it is too dry to have a top and bottom peice of bread. also make sure the meat is gf, sometimes with turkey and hams and such they add broth that is not gf

{Dinner}
pancakes and french toast, obviously use your own flour or bread, but make sure to cook yours first and not use the same pan or flipper if you have touched the normal bread.

{Desserts}
chocolate (most chocolate is ok, just watch out if it is processed on equipment that processes wheat)
 pastries: this is hard to find gluten free. try some cookies though. udi's cookies are good and betty crocker gf mixes are good too. so go ahead and buy the gf cookie, brownie and cake mixes (they are way easier then buying gf flour and substituting because then you have to add xanthum gum and it almost never turns out the same, but the mixes have the other ingredients altered to make it taste pretty good :))  I don't like "Bob's Red Mill" mixes because they use chickpea flour, its healthier but tastes kinda gross.

Here is picture of our "meals ideas" list that I had when we ate gf:
it might be different than you are used to because I also don't like eating meat, cheese, or creamy stuff. But at least there are some ideas :)




Other things I love that are gf (I would still eat these today!)
Honey Nut Chex
Whenever Bars (ok, this is good because its sugar free and gf)
Rice Cakes/crackers (quaker brand, nabisco, or targets "simply delicious" brand are all good)
Snyders GF Pretzels

Places that have good gf sections:
All of sprouts and whole foods! great labels!
target just got a small gf section and so did walmart
smiths/king soopers always labeled it nicely



I hope you have enjoyed my journey of going gluten free and then going un-gluten free :)
let me know if you have any questions!

good luck on your journey ahead no matter it be gf or not!

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Fighting Depression Naturally

Life is wonderful.
Life is also very hard.
We all go through good and bad days.

Its hardest when the bad days are more frequent than the good days. 
Or good days seem to never come.
This is how it feels with depression.

I have never been one to admit things such as this throughout my life, because I always wanted to seem "perfect" and like things were going really well, like I had life figured out. I thought {don't judge} that only weak people had depression. That if they just tried a little harder to be happy, then they wouldn't be depressed. or that it was brought on by some sin. 

One day, my whole perspective changed. Elder Holland gave this talk in General Conference for the LDS church about depression and expressed how real it is. How normal happy, righteous people can get depressed and it doesnt mean they are sinful or bad people. It happens to the best of us.


My whole perspective changed. Its funny to think back to that time, because I was depressed at that point, but didn't know it. haha, good thing nate and I talked about it and came to the conclusion that depression is not a scary or sinful thing, that it is something to be faced. It is something to acknowledge and deal with. 

When I had my sweet baby, I remember everyone asking me how I was feeling. It was like..."um...good?" Postpartum depression (PPD) is something so weird, and as a new mom I was just waiting to see if it would hit me or not. I remember telling people "well, I feel way better than when I was pregnant." That's when I realized I had been depressed my whole pregnancy. It wasn't just that I was at home sick all the time that made me feel so lowsy, it was a real chemical (or might I say hormonal) thing, it was not just in my mind. 

So since I felt so good not being pregnant, how could I possibly have PPD?  Once again, not until I was out of it did I realize that I had PPD. It took a lot of extreme anxiety and insomnia to get me through his first 5-6 months of his life. I just thought mommy life was hard and overwhelming, but I know now that once again, I had a chemical (or hormonal) change that caused a type of depression. This one was much more difficult to realize since my symptoms didn't come in the same way as most people describe "depression." So, judge or don't judge, but I had it, and never want to go through that again. 

Those experiences were hard. I don't wish to relive them. Its hard to tell them, but I know that someone else out there is going to learn from my experience, and maybe, just maybe, be able to help themselves more than I did, and avoid going through that pain by what I am saying today.

That is why I talk about it so openly.
That is why I am writing.


Ok, so what are we to do? 
Just sit around and say, if I am pregnant or have PPD I am bound to be depressed? 
If I have seasonal depression (SAD), when its snowing, I will just sit around and be sad? 
Mom life is hard, and I am going to eat my way through it since I don't have family around or good friends.
NO! 

{important note}
Also, not just "clinically depressed" people can benefit from this. i feel like just by being a stay at home mom and not having a lot of adult interaction can cause sadness that these things can alleviate!

There are so many natural ways to fight depression/sadness/loneliness!

One super hard thing about depression or deep sadness is that its like a downward cyclone. 
You feel depressed
so you don't feel motivated to do things that will help you
so you feel more depressed 
you do more things that are bad for you (cookie dough anyone?) 
and dont do things that help you 
and this causes you to be more depressed.

So, if you are reading this, and know you need help. You have to start trying things. You have to make a plan with someone who can support and keep you motivated. It will start an upward motion to your feelings and that will help you reverse the bad cyclone of depression! Before I got pregnant again, I made a plan with my husband. And through the past 8 months, its been hard exercising daily, reading my scriptures, getting to social activities, just going outside daily...BUT the plan has helped sooooo much!!!


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So....here are some things i've found that have changed everything

Once upon a time about 2 years ago, I heard a leader describe 5 things you must do to stay out of the hole of depression, and I am soooo  glad that I remembered them! They've saved my bacon so many times!

1)get out of bed/make your bed=committing you are not going back to bed
2)read your scriptures (even if you have to have scriptures by your toilet and read one verse, do it!)
3) open your blinds
4) get outside once a day at least
5)laugh at least once a day

I would add:
6) exercise (natures natural "high")
7) eat healthy (sugar and white flour only make things worse)
8) Try to talk with someone else once a day face to face (besides your spouse)...find a friend you can stop by/call when you need social interaction
9) serve

Ok, so these might sound easy. And sound kinda pathetic. I mean, only laugh once a day or go outside for a few minutes??? Let me tell you. I struggled so hard my first pregnancy to do all of these every day. I can't logically explain why i couldnt open my blinds, but it just didn't happen. And getting outside for 5 mins a day was such a struggle. 
So, this is real!



Anyway. 
Some people really do need medications. And thats ok. 
I am here to say that we should be trying all we can to alleviate it naturally first, or during.

If I find out anyone is depressed, first! first! first! thing I would say is to exercise 30 mins a day. Get your heart rate up! It is the natural "anti depressant" Heavently Father has given us. I can't tell you how many studies show that exercise works just as well or better than a lot of depression medicine! Plus, it makes you look better too!

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here are some other things I have found very helpful:

Vitamin D!
Some people just don't absorb it like others do, and so you either need more time in the sun or take supplements.

Taking doTERRA vitamins changed everything for me!!!! Like tremendous, miraculous change!
You can find out more about those here: http://www.mydoterra.com/jessicamarchant/#/
or email me at jessica.hawkes21@gmail.com for any questions
There are also a lot of doTERRA oils that really help. My daily go-to to help with my mood/energy/motivation is a doTERRA blend called Citrus Bliss!

postpartum help:
Postpartum Progress is a wonderful website with many many tools!
You can also do Placenta Encapsulation, sounds strange but it helps so many people!
hire a nanny to come a few hours a day to help with children or house chores


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here are some other things that I have found to help.

Finding spiritual quotes and posting them around the house will bring the motivation and "pick me up" that you need ;)
Here are a few:

{All Things Bright and Beautiful ~ President Monson}

"Happiness does not spring from perfection but from applying divine principles, even in small steps."
-President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, October 2012 General Conference


Everyday Mormon Women: An Attitude of Gratitude

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ok, here is an awesome one. This is an article found on the church website, but the research sited in here is all done by non-religious researchers. 

Here is the article. I recommend everyone  reading it. It is just so amazing! After reading it, I applied a lot of the principles like adding music back into my life and "trying to be happy." It made a big difference!


And the following is the list of things they say that research has found to make some people happier than others:

1.       Happy people surround themselves with other happy people. Joy is contagious. People are four times more likely to be happy in the future with happy people around them.
2.       Happy people try to be happy. When happy people don’t feel happy, they cultivate a happy thought and smile about it.
3.       Happy people spend money more on others than they spend on themselves. Givers experience what scientists call the “helper’s high.”
4.       Happy people have deep in-person conversations. Sitting down to talk about what makes a person tick is a good practice for feeling good about life.
5.       Happy people use laughter as a medicine. A good old-fashioned chuckle releases lots of good neurotransmitters. A study showed that children on average laugh 300 times a day versus adults who laugh 15 times a day.
6.       Happy people use the power of music. Researchers found that music can match the anxiety-reducing effects of massage therapy.
7.       Happy people exercise and eat a healthful diet. Eating a poor diet can contribute to depression.
8.       Happy people take the time to unplug and go outside. Uninterrupted screen time brings on depression and anxiety.
9.       Happy people get enough sleep. When people run low on sleep, they are prone to feel a lack of clarity, bad moods, and poor judgment.
10.   Happy people are spiritual.


I hope you feel better! I hope that you can understand others who are struggling better!
I hope that the sun comes out daily in your life, but if it doesn't that these things can help make at least some stars come out!

We are all in this together. 
Struggling is not a sign of weakness or sin. 
But giving up is not an option!
#herestobetterdaysahead

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

When the couch is better than the bed....

here's going to be a #herestobeingreal and #realmomlife post :)

I have a love hate relationship with these posts. I love posting them, because I love helping other moms know that their lives are not that different than mine. I like being real so that there is at least one blog out there that you don't have to feel bad when you are done reading it, you can know you woke up looking better than i did :)

But I also hate it, because I put myself out there #yaknow? Its kinda scary, because I come across as not a perfect person. I share that I struggle with pregnancy related depression, I eat too much junk food while pregnant, I share many un-attractive photos. 

But in the end, I do it anyway because I love helping others ;)

Anyway

So, today. I woke up in the worst mood. 
I slept horrible last night. 
My hip problem has been feeling "better" over the past month and I have been loving it. I don't have to be dropped off at the door for everything. I can actually take Eli to a park and walk around behind him. I can walk the halls of church without wanting to cry.

But yesterday, the tides changed.
As I went to bed, getting into bed hurt sooooo bad. Then every time i had to roll over to get out of bed I felt like i wanted to die. Like worse pain than ever before. Then i couldn't go back to sleep because of the pain, and I'd have to get up again to go to the bathroom. I think I made record amounts of trips last night, with the worst pain every time. I am surprised I didn't cry, or at least wake nate to help me out of bed each time 

I think I am going to sleep in my mom lazy chair tonight.
#yesthelazyboynategotforgraduation #iconvincedhimtogetitforme #specificallyforpregnancy #andlatenightnursingsessions
#whatanicehusband



it looks so comfy, right?
this way I wont have to sit up. it is electric, so ill just have it sit me up
#lazyorgenius?

Anyway. So besides having a freak out moment that I was paralyzed when I woke up this morning because I couldnt walk for 10 mins, the rest of my day consisted of:
#warning
#momlifecomingup


having a crying child open the shower curtain a million times because he didn't like his favorite toy now that mom was in the shower

have the pediatrician's office tell me that Eli is behind on 4 shots because our last pediatrician didn't keep records right
#lotsofcrying

not being able to walk around my house

wash all my newborn stuff (like clothes, burp cloths, blankets, nursing tanks, etc)

almost suffocate because the dryer has a problem that the maintenance doesnt think is a problem 

(you are supposed to be seeing the complete fog on the windows and the drips coming from the top)

BUT

I got a lot done!


on the left is my new consolidated "do before baby comes or you will go crazy" to-do list 
on the right is the pages of lists I have been living from trying frantically to get things done in the 2 hours I have energy to do things each day while eli sleeps :)


I used to be a list person.
it ran and ruined my life
I gave up on them 2 years ago, but my pregnancy brain this time has made me resort to writing them again otherwise I am lost on what I should do besides eat and change Eli's diapers

so I am excited that my list is so much shorter :)
#onlyonemonthleft


Anyway
Besides all the #momlife stuff I just shared
I actually got all my newborn stuff washed and put away and packed my hospital bag and resolved things with my insurance today :)

#sidenote
you guys, look at what socks I found in the big bag of socks my mom gave me that I never went through with Eli
#overwhelmedmuch

but look at them, they are for baby's with kankles!
I couldn't stop laughing! why are the tops bigger than the bottom?
#sorryifyouhaveakanklechild #illsendthemtoyou

anyway

hooray for me getting all that done, right?

so it was that kind of day
hopefully tomorrow goes better
#hopefullyicanwalk #hopefullyiwillgooutstide
#iwillalwayssmilethough

Good luck with your day!
don't follow my example and live by to-do lists
life is about the people you love
#butsometimesthingsgottagetdone

Monday, May 18, 2015

Easy Tricks to make life Easier

So we all live life

We all learn things

If you happen to be a frequent mother's lounge visitor, you'll learn even more things
#imissthemotherslounge

But if you come to my house, you'll learn probably more than you want to know about all different sorts of stuff

I love talking about things I've learned!


I have a theory that people have an innate need to be understood. We have this world that goes on inside of our heads that we want to share with others. Some have less going on in their minds (ie men) #nothatisnotashutdown #menarejustsupersimple and others have tons going on (ie women, especially moms). When we think things or experience things, some of us need to tell someone about it to have it resolved in their minds. Some people like to share what happened. I like to explain things.

Like i have said before I love to research (which i have shared much of my research with you before)
but today, I am going to share different type of things....i'm going to share a few of my favorite things I have found out in life that make my life easier and more enjoyable :)

enjoy!


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Here is how I organize my bathroom. Especially when we don't have drawers on our bathroom right now, and last time, our apt didn't even have any cupboards in the bathroom, so this is a life saver. Its like 12 bucks to buy this shoe organizer at walmart ;)
and I hang up my straightener, blow dryer, and curling irons on a hook on the back of the door so the chords dont get all tangled and that way they can cool up there too!


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Here are some more tricks
Do you ever have makeup under your eyes?
maybe every time you wake up?
maybe by 4 pm every day?
maybe you take your makeup off in the shower?



Well, everyone else notices it, and it makes us look like we are hung over or super tired. So here is a super super easy trick!


Just take a cue-tip
roll it in your mouth to get the end all wet
and the saliva actually takes mascara off!!!
just compare my before and after shots, and look at all the black on that cue tip! 
Super easy! 

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Buy cheap, buy ahead. I bought all these 9 shirts for like $3.50. I am not going to be using any of them right now, but I will def use them all in the next year and a half. I highly suggest thrift store shopping, yard sales, asking friends who might be done having kids if they have stuff to give you. Then think ahead for what you will need. We have saved sooooo  much money this way! We didn't buy any clothes for the first year of Eli's life!

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 Here is a fun trick for your hair. 
Sometimes when I take out a bun my hair looks like this:


or when I let my hair air dry it looks like this:

EASY FIX!!!!!

just let your hair air dry, or pull it out of that pony tail or whatever and just blow dry it while combing it with a pick (or something that won't make it all statiky or frizzy)!!!!
 (another tip for straighter hair is to blow dry it like this, from the roots down, that way all the frizz and everything is going in the direction you want it. So part your hair first, then when you blow dry it, blow it from the roots down while combing it with a pick)

So, my hair literally went from this:
to this:
 in like one min...then super easy straightening! because the blowdryer has done almost all of it but way faster than the straightener could!



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Here's another annoying one you can alleviate. 
Do you ever wake up with a bald spot? or maybe bad bed head??
I guess i sleep right there on the back of my head because its there every time i wake up. No amount of brushing will get this bald spot off the back of my head
#noimnotbald #butitlookslikeitifidontfixit

Easy fix with no shower!

#yesthisishowifeelwheniseemybaldspot

Just take a comb and rat your hair.
Yes, i did grow up in idaho, and we did rat and super poof our hair, but hear me out!
Just rat that area so that the hair is going in all different directions and won't fall into that gross t part in 2 mins....it might make your hair stick up, BUT then lay your hair down. It won't make your hair any poofier or anything. Just keep pulling it down or flattening it, and you'll get rid of that bed head and not have poofy Idaho or Utah hair! and it won't fall back into that bed head part for the rest of the day!
Super easy!


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On another similar, but more serious note:
This weekend we had a great stake conference
It reminded me of a lot of things I should do.
mainly: aim to become celestial!!

isn't that what this life is all about???
I feel like all things point back to this.
One of the main things is how we respond to trials!
 "Your success and happiness, both now and in the eternities, 
depend largely on your responses to the difficulties of life."

wow...i might be failing in that area. 
ok, lets be more positive, I am struggling in that area. 

confession:
I have a motto: pregnancy is hard for me. 
that's not a good motto. I shouldn't just be "hanging in there" and waiting for the trial to be done as Elder Pearson states in this most recent General Conference in his talk called "Stay by the Tree
I should be enduring to the end. I should be asking what i can do to learn from the trial. i should replace complaining with gratitude.

I have tried really hard this pregnancy to be grateful. And I am. Look at my sweet little family right now!
 (this is the cow pasture that is across from our apt that Eli wants to see all the time. we go at least 2-3x/day It melts my heart how cute he is telling us about the cows and horses for 10 mins, depsite the fact that he can only say "horsie" and "cow")
(and here is my wonderful husband who said this to me the other day when i was apologizing for crying to him everyday for 4 days in a row on our lunch time chat: "I don't care. Cry if you need to. I would rather you be doing what the Lord wants by furthering our eternal family, than to not be crying." Ok, not a direct quote, but thats the jist. Isn't he so sweet, and have such a great eternal perspective??) I am so grateful for a wonderful husband!

Anyway. I have gotten into the habit of being grateful that my life isn't like {insert horrible scenerio} or I feel myself being grateful because I realize "it could be worse."

I realized though that just being grateful that things arent worse isnt complete. 
I need to be more like Nephi and say "what am I supposed to learn from this trial?"
(once again found under Adversity in True to the Faith)

I need to do as Elder Holland tells us:
(last quote)

"faith builds on the past but never longs to stay there"




So, there is my sermon for the day
Be grateful, but also be learning and not wishing away our trials or just getting through it!

On another note, I hope you have wonderful hair after my fun tutorials
and bag free eyes
and no bed head
and a cleaner bathroom :)

Thursday, May 14, 2015

what just happened??

You know when you have one of those days and you're like...um....what just happened here?
ya
today was like that

So I woke up and put this shirt on...one I wear about every other day. Its a L T-shirt...you know, perfect for pregnancy lounging. And low and behold...it doesnt fit.

um...this shirt fit 2 days ago, what happened? well, its probably the baby growing, right?
haha, or maybe the fact that I've gained 10 lbs in the last few weeks. That's probably it. 
<<I should probably harness my milk shake cravings!>>

Anyway, then, knowing that I have a dentist appt to make it to at 10:30, and I have to drop Eli off at the babysitters at 10, meaning I have to leave here at 9:45,....I still decide I want to go to the gym and work out. 

You know, because all pregnant women, who feel like a whale, and waddle like a duck, and can't put their workout shoes on, just love to workout. So, I head out to workout at 9.

I do my wonderful stationary bike 30 min workout...but since it takes me 3x as long to walk to and from the gym as a normal person, I get back at 9:45. All sweaty, no make-up, and diaper bag not ready.

Oh ya, I realize that I had just hit a button on my phone for a "system update." As I walk home I realize that it flashed something about taking 15 mins to update....wait. I don't know how to get to my friend's house without my phone! Seriously, no guessing here. So after I change clothes, wrangle my sweaty hair, wrangle eli from climbing on the counter and eating my retainers, put on make-up, accidentally get mascara on my eyelids, wrangle eli again for sticking his hands in the toilet...I realize that I have to print directions to her house and its already 9:55

I then realize that Eli has turned off the printer. So I turn it on....another system cleaning, this always takes for. ev. er.!!!   So, now its 10 and I'm waiting for the printer to clean the print heads and Eli is trying to unplug the printer. 

as I waddle around trying to catch him...I check my phone and...hooray, the system update is done. And I finally can get in my car and go to the babysitters....

wow! that was stressful. Why do things like that have to happen?
I feel like I have this mom thing under control most times, and I am rarely late because I prepare ahead of time and leave with lots of time to spare for Eli to stop and tell me about the rocks 5 times, and then stop and eat cheerios off the car floor before we can buckle him in. #hesseriouslyissocutethough
But today...i was a mess

and now my phone is all updated and all my settings are off, and I can't remember how to change them, like it showing me who texted me or how to turn off the dinging sounds....lol
#technologicallychallengedmuch #onlywhenpregnant #brainfog

good news. after i made it to the dentist appt, they cleaned my teeth and I wait for like 20 mins for the dentist to come in. You know, I walked past all the empty chairs, so I know no one else is in the office...but whatever. Doctors do what they want because they went to school for a long time. She blows air on my teeth and looks in with a light for 15 seconds and...
#ohyeahbacktothegoodnews
...declares me cavity free!

um....k. I have never had a dentist do that. Usually they have to poke your teeth and such...but whatever. If you don't want money from my insurance for fake cavities, I'm fine with that.
Then she left without me being able to ask her if its better to brush Eli's teeth every few days at night, or every morning (because, he basically hates it. Anyone who knows Eli knows that he is the happiest little boy....he is, except when i brush his teeth, haha. And I always forget at night...so I wanted her opinion, but I guess she had "other patients" to do a 15 second check up on. )



Anyway, enough of that stuff....
I am super excited to not be pregnant anymore. My friend posted about being able to bend down to put her clothes on, now that she's had her baby. It might have made me cry thinking about how hard it is for me to even turn over in bed, but alone put pants on. But our sweet little one is almost here. #bepositive #bepositive #bepositive

But I will miss all the awkward conversations I get to have because of being prego.
Just a few weeks ago, people have started to outwardly guess that I am pregnant. You know, just bring it up without asking, but it is still sooooo funny!
The hygenist today said "so...um...anything new since we last saw you?"
I almost responded "nope, except that i've gained 30 lbs in just my belly area....I know you're in the  teeth business, but you know of any good diets for big bellies??"

haha, but I didn't 

or I hear things like "whoa, you've got that little one and are ready to have another?"
"no ma'am, I'm not ready. Do you know how to prolong pregnancy for a few more months until I am ready?"


or how about this one:
"you're already 7.5 months pregnant? that went by fast!"
"I know, it was like I fell asleep and then bam. I woke up two seconds later and had to use the bathroom, and that has happened all....night....every...night...for the last 7 months. Yeah, time sure flies when you can't sleep at night!"


Ok, I should stop this sarcastic post. 
#sorry #sarcasmisforsillypeople #ilearneditinmyyouth #badhabit

well...I am off to do motherly pregnancy things. Like wash, fold, and organize all my newborn things
#iveputitofflongenough
#newbornsneedsomuchstuff
#getreadyforbabynumbertwo

have a great day!
full of excitement
#wellnottoomuchexcitement
#imeanthewrongtypeofexcitement
#justhaveagoodday!