"can't-make-up-my-mind" syndrome

Have you ever had complete "can't make up your mind" syndrome?

Well, I am officially 8 months (36 weeks) pregnant now!

(I was so excited to get to this point! I mean, being pregnant you can use pregnancy as an excuse, but no one...I mean no one...messes with an 8 month pregnant lady. So i have officially reached this awesome status of "don't you dare make fun of my waddle...I'm 8 months pregnant!")

anyway,

 I had this crazy energy last week and got all my "get-done-before-the-baby-comes-or-else" to-do list items done.

Nursery...done!

Baby clothes....washed!

Hospital bags...packed!

witch hazel and depends....bought!

#okdontactlikeyoudidntusethem #weallknowhowpostpartumis

 Now I am just kinda twiddling my fingers, waiting for this baby to come, since all my friends I usually hang out with are out of town, moved away, or sick.

My emotions are all over the place and kinda contradictory right now

Some days...ok, lets go with...some hours/minutes/seconds I'm kinda like:

"wow, I am so tired, I really wish I could just be put in a coma 

and told to wake up when my baby is here"

next minute

"Running a half marathon sounds really awesome right now."

#ireallyhavethesethoughts #crazyright?

Sometimes:

"I am so sick of eating and getting insta-bloated, I wish I didn't have to eat food...ever."

next minute

"I want to eat everything in this house, and now I will."

Sometimes...well, more like ever since this weekend:

"Hooray, I'm glad our friends left their amazing-1000-calories-per-bite lemon bundt cake at our place after they came and played games with us Saturday night."

next minute

"why do I keep eating this cake that makes me feel like a sugar-high zombie? I am going to turn into a walking cake!"

while Eli is asleep:

"I feel great, I won't take a nap, Ill just watch netflix for hours"

once he's awake

"why couldn't you take longer than a 3 hr nap? I wanted to sleep or at least get things done."

I hope this never happens to you. It is driving me cah-ray-zeeeee!    And I know nate is going crazy too, although he won't say anything about it #perksofhavingawonderfulhusband

Except that I can't decide on the baby's name!!!!

Seriously! Boy names are really rough!

We had a million girl names we were in love with #oklikefour

but then once we found out it was a boy, we were like "um...cool. what are we going to name him?"

So, nate really likes to call the baby a name, not just "baby." So, i give him the top name of the week to call our baby. But then, it rubs me the wrong way once and we switch names. We've gone through our top 3-4 names like ten times. I finally told him that I can't decide til we meet the sweet little baby and then we can decide between Mustang and Eugene

#jk #notournamechoices #butwouldntMustangMarchantbelegit??

PLUS

 I still think we are having a girl!!!

Here's the story. We went to the ultra sound doctor and he had this old equipment. I was like....ok, i hope you can tell whats going on in there? His first shot he was like "oh this is an obvious one!"...and we were like, really? 

So, he did the rest of the ultra sound checking the other organs and I literally said:

"um...can you show us the boy part again, just to make sure?" 

He didnt think that was funny that I was challenging his 90 year old machine. 

But I guess the baby turned and he couldn't find it again. 

So we're stuck with this "obvious" picture he gave us :)

So, we tell people we are 80% sure its a boy. If it comes out a girl, then we have some awesome names for her :) 

Can you see why I am an emotional wreck over this name thing?? I don't even know the gender, but a lone what to call him/her.

Well, I'm off to do...something.

Maybe clean, maybe make cookies

maybe read, maybe eat

maybe sky-dive or maybe i'll just paint my nails

I can't decide. I need to get a hobby...wait, if I get a hobby started, it will stop once this baby comes...so maybe I shouldn't...or maybe I should

ahhhhh

til next time!